Just take this song and you'll never be left all alone

So this weekend was the Mötley Crüe concert.

For readers who don't know, my Mom and Dad were huge Mötley Crüe fans.

I was raised listening to them in my livingroom on MTV with my Mom while dancing to their music, Mom taught me to throw my arm in the air all sassy like when singing "All around the world, girls will be girls" from Same Ol' Situation (S.O.S).

I will never forget doing that with my Mom as a kid.
When they played that song it made me think of her and smiled,
feeling lucky that I have that memory of us together.

My friends and family all put in money together to for me to able to attend Mötley Crüe's Final Tour as a graduation present.

I bought 3 tickets for me, my boyfriend and my Dad.

I wished so badly that Mom was here so I could have taken her.

She would have had an awesome time.

The finale they played Home Sweet Home and I got up in my chair and swayed back and forth and cried.

That song just makes me think of Mom so much and makes me miss her terribly.

Just take this song 

and you'll never be left all alone

Take me to your heart

Feel me in your bones

Just one more night

and I'm coming off this 

Long and winding road

I'm on my way

I'm on my way

Home Sweet Home

But it was awesome to be standing between my Dad and my boyfriend.

Rocking out.

Hands in the air.

15 rows from the front of the stage.

Floor seats.

& right underneath Tommy Lee's rollercoaster drumset : The Cruecifly.

To a band my Dad has always loved and one I grew up loving.

It's extremely bittersweet.

Weirdly though, their FINAL TOUR actually happening made me feel like it was just another nail in the coffin signifying how final Mom's death is.

Like because she's gone the band is breaking up.

It's weird...I don't know if you know what I mean...

But I enjoyed my time with my Dad.

So many times in my life since losing Mom I feel guilty.

The reason is because I miss Mom so much and so many things make me think of her.

Then I have Dad and I feel like I don't acknowledge that he's still alive and with me enough.
But it's hard because we live many states away and he works odd hours and he isn't a very big phone person.

Mom was in the same state as me (although 4 hours away...) and we talked every single day.

But yeah... I love my Dad a lot and I literally live in fear of the day I will lose him.

I am so glad we got to go to the concert together.

I am so glad that it's a memory we'll have together.

We were talking about the last concert we each saw.

I told him the last concert I saw was Mötley Crüe in 2011 with my boyfriend.
He said the last concert he saw was Mötley Crüe with Pink Floyd with my Mom (and that was sometime in the 90s).

How funny?

That's all.

Just wanted to give a quick update.

Thanks for reading. 

xoxo.